Tuesday, 22 May 2018

Farewell Dear Blog

Gosh I haven't written for a while. I must admit I'm finding topics to write about here few and far between these days. I started this blog with a few goals in mind and I do believe I have reached them.

I've cut back on the drinking, including two months alcohol free.

I've cut back on the anxiety. Staying calm during my detached retina surgery while struggling to breathe was huge for me.

I've lost weight ( 3kgs and counting).

I've also successfully headed back to work.

So, I will bid this wee blog farewell, at least for the time being.

I'd you'd like to stay in touch, you can find me at the following places:





Bye for now

Love KB

Tuesday, 20 March 2018

Day 56 - Posturing After Detached Retina Surgery

The past five days, I've had to engage in posturing to enable my eye to recover better after detached retina surgery.

During the day - sit upright in bed for 50 minutes per hour even when tired or asleep.

During the night - head must remain elevated at approximately 45 degree angle and eye protection shield must be worn.

I survived! I don't have to wear the shield or stay in bed all day anymore. I'm still taking it easy as my vision is blurry but I'm really looking forward to sleeping much more comfortably tonight.

Love KB

Sunday, 18 March 2018

Day 55 - Detached Retina Surgery

Day 47

While I was at work, I experienced flashes of light and dots in my vision. It was a bit scary as I had no idea what was happening. Very strange.

Day 49

Went to work and had a really good day. Getting concerned about my eye because there is a dark shadow now. Booked an appointment with Dr for tomorrow.

Day 50

What a day! Went to Dr about eye and she told me to go to the optometrist urgently. Optometrist saw me straight away and gave me a referral to the eye clinic and asked me to go to the hospital immediately. Drove home, picked up a few things and took a cab to hospital. Didn't have to wait too long at the hospital as my case was urgent. Diagnosis was a detached retina and I was scheduled for surgery at 5pm the following day. Really felt like having a drink but didn't. Went to bed after dinner instead.

Day 51

Arrived at hospital early. Didn't realise I was going to be in a proper hospital bed, had my own telly and everything. Was really good that hubby could sit with me while I waited. All staff in hospital departments were great. Was given eye numbing drops by nurse while I waited. First time in hospital from treatment since I was born so I was a little nervous, My blood pressure was getting up there (what a surprise), but not enough to delay surgery.

I was lucky enough to go to surgery EARLY!!!! The anesthesiologist put some weird contraption on my eye which actually hurt quite a bit but it was quick. I was given a local anesthetic so that my eye would stay open and pain free as I was to be awake during the surgery. The surgeon put a cloth over my face making it a bit difficult to breath at first but I did some breathing exercises and adjusted quickly. I didn't feel a thing! I was bandaged up, lay on my front for 2 hours and then I was free to go home.

I had to keep the bandage on, stay upright for the rest of the day and my head had to be at a 45 degree angle during the night. Took me a while to get settled as I am not used to sleeping on my back but got there in the end.

Day 52

Bandage came off , my eye was red and swollen but surprisingly pain free. Back to the hospoital for a check up in the afternoon. All is looking as it shold be, I have drops to use, my sight will be blurry for a few weeks and I need to continue with my posturing during the day and night . Back to see the Dr in a couple of weeks.

Day 53

Feeling a bit sorry for myself this morning as I can't see much. Was a bit grumpy with my wonderful nurse - hubby. Feel better now that I am comfy in bad with relaxing music, my laptop and a book to kind of read. A bit frustrated but I'll live,

Oh and still sober!

P.S received flowers from my workplace and a visitor later in the day so I'm feeling much better than I was this morning.

Love KB

Sunday, 4 March 2018

Day 41 - Haven't Touched A Drop

I've had an interesting few weeks.

Day 34

Broke down in tears because I was feeling overwhelmed.  Probably hormonal. I definitely feel more emotional since I've stopped drinking but I love being more in touch with my emotions.

I had an appointment with my Dr last week. She is so pleased with my blood pressure and weight loss results that I don't need to see her for six months. Fantastic news.

Day 38

Felt quite flat the last few days and on the brink of tears. Had a chat with hubby and a cry and realised I was still missing Coco. I googled stages of grief and now everything makes sense. I had been feeling guilty about Coco's last days lately and the next stage in grief is depression. Felt much after the chat and the cry.

Day 41

41 days without alcohol. Had a lovely BBQ with our friends next door last night. Laughed a lot, chatted a lot and sniffed a few drinks, LOL. There were a couple of times during the night when my brain was telling me - just the one wouldn't hurt, but didn't touch a drop. Proud of myself.

Love KB

Wow, I think that's it!

Thursday, 1 March 2018

My Feet Were Swollen From Drinking Green Tea

I recently swapped my usual decaf coffee with decaf green tree. I watched a show about health which informed me that green tea has many health benefits including weight loss.

After a couple of days, I noticed my feet and ankles were swelling quite significantly. At fist I thought it was due to the hot weather but this continued for a few days. I headed to 'Dr Google' and discovered that many others had the same problem. I stopped drinking the green tea and my ankles and feet were back to normal within 24 hours. Weird!

Oh well, I tried it but no more green tea for me.

Love KB

Saturday, 10 February 2018

Alcohol Withdrawal Symptoms

Day 20 and feeling great.

I kept a record of how I was feeling in a private journal when I stopped drinking but I didn't start blogging again until I was sure I could get a few alcohol free days under my belt. Below are a few notes I wrote about alcohol withdrawal symptoms I was experiencing and how I was feeling at the time.

Day 1

I've had alcohol free days before so day 1 was no different than any other alcohol free day.

Day 2

Well it's been almost 48 hours since I had a drink and I feel amazing. Allen Carr's book really helped me a lot. I was so scared about having withdrawal that I didn't want to try going alcohol free. Now I  wish I had tried it sooner.

Day 3

Had a few bad panic attacks on the way to the Dr this morning. Could be alcohol withdrawal but I think it's because I freaked out when I read some alcohol withdrawal symptoms on the net.

Felt quiet irritable and told hubby off for inviting our neighbour over for drinks tomorrow.

Soooo tired, not normal tired, exhausted.

Day 4

A neighbour came over last night, we had a lovely time and I didn't feel the need to drink. Could have done with an early night because I felt so tired but she didn't leave until almost 10. Didn't fall asleep until 12 but didn't have any more symptoms.

Today I'm feeling so tired but calm and alcohol free.

Day 5

Went to work yesterday. Felt great in the am, really tired for the last hour and a half of work but I made it. Had a nap after work, felt tired all night but didn't have any cravings. Went to bed early but took a couple of hours to nod off. Getting to sleep a little earlier each night and once I'm asleep, sleeping really well.

Day 6

Today is day 6 and I'm feeling really good. It's 11am and not feeling tired so far. I've lost a  kilo already too.

Day 7

Yay, didn't have a nap yesterday. Listen to me, I sound like a kid, but I'm very pleased to be feeling human again.

Day 8

Had a good sleep last night, but took me a long time to fall asleep again. I'm hoping this will change with time. Not doing much today, chilling at home and reading Breaking Dawn.

Day 9

I Only Sniffed The Bottle

Days 10 - 20

The hardest part for me so far was the first five days when I felt exhausted but couldn't fall asleep for a long time at bedtime. It's not taking me as long to fall asleep now and I'm sleeping like a baby once I nod off. I have a lot of energy during the day, my resting heart rate has reduced by 14 bpms and I've lost 2kg.

I'm so proud of myself, I can't believe that after many years of struggling to cut down alcohol intake, I've been alcohol free for 20 days :)

Love KB

Sunday, 4 February 2018

Your Personal Stop Drinking Plan by Allen Carr

Day 14 alcohol free and feeling great.

After Coco passed away, I ordered a copy of Allen Carr's - Your Personal Stop Drinking Plan, from the library. I'd read the book previously but I was trying to moderate my alcohol intake at the time rather than stop drinking.

I can honestly say that this book was one of the reasons I was able to stop drinking. Allen helped me understand why I drank alcohol and gave me tools, advice and a simple plan to enable me to stop.

I would recommend - Your Personal Stop Drinking Plan,  to anyone who has tried to stop drinking without success but who is determined to stop drinking.

Photo Source: Pixabay

That's all from me today,

Love KB
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